A little bit of this: A little bit of that...

Yesterday was a pretty random day for me :)
At 10:30am, i had an appointment at the ortho, for my braces XD - I am now known as 'brace-face' according to my oldest sister :P
When they put the brace in, it didn't hurt, so that was relieving :P
I got home about 45 minutes later and watched Roman Holiday, (starring Audrey Hepburn and Gregory Peck. It's a good movie, and my first time watching it too ^^)
I couldn't eat any lunch, much to my disappointment, but i did manage to eat a few nibbles of soft jacket potato - my sister's lunch =D
At about 1:30, my sister had a weird brainwave and she randomly said; "I feel like going shopping. Let's go!"
So we went shopping to a city centre, about 45 minute drive away from home.
My dad was out the house, so he knew nothing about us sneaking out the house to go shopping!
We did call him and tell him afterwards though :)
I managed to buy a few things from H&M - a pair of jeans, summery hair grips and some floral patterned shoes.
Altogether, they were pretty cheap so i was content with my buy :)

Now we're on the subject: what's your style of fashion?
I love being individual in style and in personality, so that i can create myself and my trademark, but sometimes, I can't resist buying things that are 'in' trend.

For example, baggy shirts are really popular amongst women, right?

I've got 2 of them in my wardrobe, and i'm currently hooked on them. But it's not because they're popular that i like them. I only buy things that i actually like, and things that suit me.

I'm really looking forward to summer, partly because i don't have to go out wrapped in a big coat and a scarf.

I can wear skirts and dresses without looking out of place, because in winter, i started wearing skirts, despite the freezing weather, just because i felt like it! ^^

I love clothes and shopping and just being outrageous with my fashion.

I'm still young and free, so i want to spend that time dressing as if i don't give a damn!

That's partly why i want to go to Japan - people are so out-front with their clothes and they have the confidence to wear something, even if it looks disgusting! >< *haha*

Sakura x

That person, who said this...

Last week, my friend told me something that got me sooo angry!

She told me that quite a while ago, she was walking behind this girl in our class, talking to this other girl. The girl in our class was crying because of her gran, who died about 8 years ago.

This is the bit that really got me angry:

My friend told me that she heard the girl say "I don't care about anybody else's relatives dying; I only care about my gran."

I got soo angry because of how selfish she was!

I'm not just referring to the loss of my mum, but just everyone in general.

She's insulting millions of people, and i know that one my friend's lost her uncle in a car crash AND her 16 year old cousin to cancer. Seriously though, she doesn't realise that what she said was so selfish and such a stupid thing to say!! Grr..

Sakura

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Snap/Crackle/POP!

Title's random - sorry! :P

I feel so guilty with myself because i've just been spending loads of money on stuff i don't actually need.
It's like clothes and books and little accessories and stuff!
I can't help it though!! Whenever i tell myself i'm not going to spend, i always end up spending anyway, because i say to myself that 1 more buy won't be any harm...
But it is, because as a 13 year old, i don't earn money. I don't want to ask for money from my dad, 'cuz that would be unfair, and so my bank account is slowly falling to emptiness. :(
Seriously, i have a problem!! ><

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Denial

My friends came round on Friday for a sleepover and it was really fun :P

We had LOADS to eat and we managed to finish 2 tubs of Ben & Jerry's :O haha

And then after we had watched a film and it was about 1 o'clock, we went upstairs and sat on the double bed. We gossiped about people but then my friend asked me a weird question.

She asked me if i liked this boy, as in liked 'liked'. (that has been stated numerous times in previous posts).

At the time, i went silent for about 3 seconds and then stated 'no, why? Do you?'

To be honest i didn't know what to say. It striked me as kind of random. Do i normally look as if i like him? Because, to be honest i'm put in a position where i can't like or go out with any boy.

...And it's not because i'm a lesbian -_-

My mum told me and my two sisters quite a while before she died, that we shouldn't go out with any boy till we've graduated from university because we should focus on our studies. This has made me feel guilty plenty of times because of the little slips in my mind that's convincing me to like him.

My dad feels the same way as my mum, so that makes it kind of hard to bring boys over to our house. My oldest sister's done it before but that's because she's convinced my dad that her friend's gay when he's actually not! :P

For my birthday in June, i want to invite 7 friends, who are girls, and him round because he invited me to his birthday party. However, i have no idea how dad'll act and i personally don't want to find out because i have a guess.

He'll start thinking that his little girl's growing up too fast and other fatherly concerns about his youngest daughter.

But truthfully I only like this boy as a friend and not as a 'crush'

Hmph...

Sakura

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22nd March '09

It's soon that time of year again - mother's day.
Before mum died, me and my sisters would line up to give our presents to mum. These presents would be something like a photoframe with a family picture in it, or a small ornament.
In every shop i go in when i go shopping, there are always mocking signs reminding me of the occasion. It's kind of nostagic, but taunting at the same time.
My sisters and I have already had a mother's day without mum. We just get on with our everyday lives, but there's a funny air around everyone - like we're trying to push out the reality of mother's day away from us.

So, yesterday night, i was thinking about mum. I had just watched Koizora, and i was extremely sensative and emotional because i had been crying heavily at the ending of the film.

So, when i had tucked myself into bed (no one to do it for me, right?) i started sobbing again.

I was thinking about mum and how guilty i felt and stuff.

But i tryed to be extra quiet so that my sisters wouldn't wake up and worry about me.

But when i heard my sister's bedroom door open, i froze and help my breath.

I couldn't hear what she was doing but it sounded like she was just standing outside her door, from the lack of the sound of footsteps.

I think my sister had heard sobs coming from my room and came out of her bedroom to check that i wasn't actually crying.

"I'm sorry for worrying you."

But i never talk to my sisters about my emotions.

You may be asking why?

Sakura

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Angst blinds the Innocent

My sister's been acting really strange recently and I can't figure out what's wrong with her.

I haven't had a proper conversation with my sister for about 3 days now and she hasn't uttered a single word to me either.

It's really lonely, because i'm normally really close to my sister. She's worrying my dad too and i think it's really selfish of her. I really don't know what we've done, if we have actually done anything, but she keeps lashing out on my dad and shouting at him, when all he wants is simple 'yes' or 'no' answer to his question.

Maybe i should try saying sorry to her or something or try talking to her, but i have a feeling that she'll start getting angry with me or something.

Maybe she just misses mum, and that's why she's like that. But, if that's the case, she doesn't have to so selfish because we all miss our mum.

Sakura

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